The Insecure Male

I get it. I think most people do eventually. Not all of us humans get along. Some of us are just built to think/act differently. I actually relish this fact, and can not imagine life were everyone gets along with everyone else.

What I can not understand.... people that are so insecure with themselves that they will actually HATE people that do not like them. Seriously?

This past week, I learned that someone feels this way about me. I've suspected it for some time (7 years) but finally had it confirmed. And it all stems from the fact that I do not like ( but respect, tolerate, acknowledge) this person's personality. Selfishness, arrogance, immaturity, childishness, adult tantrums, incoherent babbling etc..just aren't character traits I associate or relate with on a continual basis. I also think there may be mental illness involved.

But I've decided to be the bigger person ( I mean, mental illness really is no laughing matter...) and I will make a more concerted effort with this person. So whenever I see them, I smile extra wide (although it makes me feel dirty) and make small talk ( which goes against every fiber in my being). I know it will make no difference, and my efforts are more than likely transparent, but what else can I do?

P.S. I do have a top secret plan to resolve this whole issue I currently face, but for the moment it must remain hidden in my medulla oblongta. But wish me well......